Married or not

I passed my childhood very happily in my rural village and surroundings. It gave me knowledge of nature and made me capable to live in any circumstances in the future. Exactly, I have to remember it not because I had privileges since I had no, but because life was very quiet, and I was always winning. But when I go to larger and larger world to live, I find myself more and more losing, becoming to know how to regard failure in addition to victory, and knowing the larger world will remind youself that ego is so tiny, and will entice you to do something greater than your ancestor did. That is my desire.

My ancestors were not intellectual, they are almost illiterate, they need knowledge so they give birth to me, and let me supplement them and continue to glorify my family.

If one day, I don't believe in this faith or am tired of this raped life or society, I will leave country like you, or be monk, or ignite a revolution. But revolution does not result in all. People have to experience necessary process to become sober and sage.

We started talking about being married or not. Look where we've got. Let me ask you something. Have you ever travelled outside China?

Let's say that travelling inside China is already a big trip, as I could notice, using a map, that if you ever go from extreme North-Eastern part of this huge country,(Heilongjiang) to the South-western part (Yunnan), you've got a distance which is about 7430km(4630 miles) by "bird flight" (straight line, which means there must be something like 9000km -5625 miles- by road!). personaly the biggest trip I made in my life was getting to Sharm el Sheik (Egypt), and this is much less than half of the Chinese inner trip mentioned above...

I asked that, Francky, with a purpose....

Never, I've never travelled out of China to have a world look.

In one Chinese comedy film (Dong Cheng Xi Jiu) made in Hong Kong, it is said:

Life is a desert, you wish to go out and find water, but in the end you will find youself still in it.

Well, pluiepoco, in my case I found the water....Plenty of it, actually.

I have not found, I am burying myself in dream, and it is like seeing mirage in desert.