Original text - English - It's been a month since we last spoke and i have...

It has been a month since we last spoke and I have no idea what happened, why I have lost you. It has been so sudden and completely unexpected. I still cannot forget you, it would be much easier if you explained it to me. You know that I would understand if you found somebody else. Am I asking you for too much?
I don't think you can imagine the pain I am going through. I have been in love with an angel who suddenly disappeared and I cannot find myself in the world without him. Especially because I don't know the reason.
I cannot do anything more than that, I can just beg you to explain to me some things and then we can both go.
I just hope that nobody would ever hurt you as much as you hurt me - nobody deserves it.