Cel-lingvo: Angla
I really thank you for your comments.
Firstly, I am not a fanatic, this is just a different thing. Maybe it is not possible to explain it. It may be a way of expressing my passion and violence that are inside of me, because of the chaos that I live in.
I don't know if it is a situation to be worried about. It is true that I spent a lot of time thinking about whether they are real and whether I could be one of them.